Dear Kathy,
I am so sorry that your friend is being less than supportive. I remember
when two of my girlfriends kinda backed away after I shared my dx with
them. It is not the same but it really stinks.
The level of your depression seems equal to what I have been dealing
with. It is just enough. I can't express it in any other way. I've just
had enough.
As for animals, read my next post!
Love,
Debby
KathleenCorrigan@AOL.COM wrote:
>
> Dear Debby: I appreciate your concern so much, but please, please do NOT
> worry about me!! You have enough on your own plate, my friend, and losing a
> beloved pet is one of the most traumatic experiences you can go through -- at
> least from my standpoint. I love my pets so much, I may need psychotherapy.
> And the weather -- of course it can impact you, but our other lovely ladies
> are correct. It can certainly be hormonal, or a combination of a lot of
> things. It's not a pleasant way to exist, though -- I know that from
> experience. I'm a little depressed myself right now, and fighting the
> temptation to stay in bed all day. I haven't done it so far, though. I've
> managed to clean myself up every day, put on make up, do the hair thing,
> clean the house, and plop myself in front of the computer and actually work!
> It helps, but I still get these overwhelming feelings of horrible sadness and
> hopelessness every once in awhile and I just want to sit and cry.
>
> My gentleman friend is backing off, too, which isn't helping me much. He
> told me yesterday that he felt he had rushed our relationship and it was
> getting too intense. He needed some time to himself. I told him I
> understood perfectly -- to take all the time he needs. After he left, I went
> outside and threw rocks at the storage shed. This was his "gentle" way of
> breaking up with me. While we were together he was forever making comments
> about how perfectly I am "put together." Not any more. I don't think he has
> any conception of how desolate he's made me feel, but perhaps he will someday
> when someone deserts him in his time of need. Actually, I've allowed him to
> make me feel this way -- I realize that. Now I've got to get on with it. I
> have things to do. Crying only makes my face swell up. I haven't cried yet,
> but when I do -- Katie bar the door!
>
> I hope you can begin to feel better soon, my friend -- and me, too. Life
> can be so tough sometimes, but then it can be so beautiful, too.
>
> Love you, Kathy
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