Dear Friend: Checking in and up on you. Read your
message over the forum and you know I have been praying. Since they have
started Tommy back on the chemo, does this mean they just may still go for the
transplant? Do you really feel he was truly in remission? I have
heard from several people that right after chemo or radiation that the testing
for the particular cancer goes way down. Just a thought.
Are you holding up okay? I know you have to be walking
on egg shells. Could I have your phone number again?
I was having a very nice day and then someone told me that my
brother-in-law had been talking about me. That he said I just gave up,
that if I were to loose weight, I would get my confidence back and go back to
work. Needless to say an addison/cushings person has nothing to fight
stress with; so I went into a panic attack and cried my heart out. It just
cut me to the core as I never gave up, I fought like hell to stay alive and
there is no way I could go back to work, I am in pain everyday. I take 22
pills a day to stay alive. Sure, I am a different person; but part of me is
better than the old Lillian, or is that the Zoloft, lol???? My doctor has a
hissy every time I mention the weight, he keeps asking me if I think that is all
weight gain? Then he says "I am trying to keep you alive and your worried
about your weight?" So am I missing something here?
By tomorrow I will have to say "OH well" and simply dismiss
this issue. If I don't my sugar will go sky high and my addison's/cushings
and it will take everything not to crash. You know Kathy, he really had a
hell of a nerve. Most people with addisons crash a couple times of year
(end up in the hospital), I have not once had to return to the hospital in four
year's. I think that tells me that my meds are right and that I work hard
at taking care of me.
Do I sound just a wee bit pissed off? Gzzzz, I am
praying very hard that Tommy's wonderful attitude is going to pull him
through. Love you Kathy, lillian