I have made a few decisions for my life. I have
been allowing my asthma to stop me from being a part of life too long my doctors
have not been helpful at all. I joined Ballys fitness club and started working
out with a personal trainer yesterday. My arm hurt from the new effort but I did
not run in to to much trouble during the training the manager Elgin is taking me
on as a personal challenge. His son has asthma. Thus far he has been very help
full. I have been stuck in a cycle of taking medication for the asthma and then
having side effects. i.e. Depression and weight gain. It has gotten so bad that
I have not been able to work full-time. I miss being a part of life. I listen to
all of your struggles Think of my Dad zest for life. I realize that I have been
afraid to live for fear of dieting.
So I am going to live. by dad and family always
babied me because of my asthma. yet when I was younger I did not know I had
asthma and I was a runner, a water skier, a bicycle rider and a hiker. I think
my dad would have loved to have changed his life so he could live better and
longer. He might have stopped eating so much and played more. Like he did when
we were children. He did make one change he stopped drinking for 18 years before
he died. That was his one source of great pride. Dad was also very involved with
his community as I am my neighborhood.
We are gathering the information for the attorneys
for the malpractice case over dads death. It is very painful. we never had a
chance to look at other options dad wanted the surgery done and to get bake to
life. He witness one of his good friend wasting away from the chemo and cancer.
There was perhaps no greater fear for my father ( a fat Man) then to loose that
much weight. One of the Doctors was a friend of my fathers. I hope we won't have
to sue him. Quakers don't sue to settle differences. The problem I have is that
I need to know the doctors here my concerns and acknowledge thier mistakes so
they will not do it again. But in the adversarial system the Doctors will not
sit down with the family and admit they screw up. The is no reconciliation
process short of the court. I do not want this to happen to anouther family
Father or mother.
Cindy the neighbor who was stabbed, is doing all
right. She is back is work. the police are idiots they are doing every thing to
late. i.e. finger prints. picture identification ect. I pray they come up with
something. But I will be suprized. We will pursue the police not doing thing
right with internal affairs.
