An angel was born tonight. I couldn't sleep very
well earlier, so posted a few messages. I got off the computer and was
heading to bed when the phone rang with the "THE
CALL".
My wife: Donna Robin (nee: Orlando) Cothran, aged
37, has passed away on April 26, 1999 at 2:08 AM and is now in God's
hands.
She had been hospitalized for the past 3
weeks due to back pain and other medical complications. She was in a great
deal of pain and was on both Duragesic patches, morphine pills and a
morphine drip. I last saw her 2 days ago, and could not be by her side the
past 2 days because we have just moved into a new house - a house she will
never see.
Donna has left this earth with myself and 3
small boys: Jonathan - 9, Christopher -7 (his birthday was yesterday) and
Jeremy - 5 (his birthday is in 2 days). They were to have started school
today after over 3 weeks out due to us relocating from Atlanta to
Philadelphia. She was supposed to come home today and they were so looking
forward to seeing their mom home again from the hospital. That will not
happen.
My middle sons birthday was yesterday - and the
youngest is in 2 days. We always celebrated they birthday on the 27th,
tomorrow, and they were so looking forward to seeing their mom in a birthday
hat and with a noisemaker. That will not happen.
My oldest looks at me and must wonder how his
dad can possibly have the strength to carrry on and raise him and his
younger brothers all alone in the world. The dad that he has seen destroy
the house in a drunken rage. The dad his mom has left 3 times in the past
because daddy seemed to like to get drunk more often care and love his
family.
My middle son just learned to ride his bike
without training wheels. I never had a chance to tell Donna that Christopher
can ride his bike now with just 2 wheels. We were going to show her how
grown up and proud he is that he can do it like the bigger boys. We never
will.
I love her with every fiber within my being -
I can never replace her - nor will I try.
I will hurt so much - but I must somehow go
on. I made her a promise to take care of the boys forever. That I will
do.
For those still fighting the dragon and those
supporting the fighters - I will continue to pray for all of you.
Go in Peace my lovely Donna - I shall love you now,
always and forever. Goodbye
