Hi, Christine, well, certainly can emphasize, I have been having more
spells of just tearing up. I am an "underreactor" - it difficult to tell
what I am feeling. I just try not to get into a negative loop. Today, we
went to a favourite beach called Willows beach in the Uplands (richer
part of town) We, means Muffy our border collie and I we love it in all
weathers and there are usually migrating birds there. Today was a bit
blustery as Owl would say, clear blue sky, scudding waves, cool still in
the early morning. Could not see Mt Baker or Mt Rainer over Washington
state way. The snow on the Olympics was clearly seen though. The beach
is small, sandy and crescent shaped and at low tide so we had a long
stretch of hard sand to walk on one way. Few people out there that early
but always friendly. It is quite interesting that people do say "Good
Morning" and smile but hardly ever on evening walks or later in the day.
We were able to get over the other side of the crescent to another
smaller, rockier beach. We stopped there to admire the birds through
binoculars. We saw the bufflehead (I think) a almost white duck with
black wings and front with a white flaring crest. Black bill and front
of the head. Another duck had a white stripe down the face with green
neck and beige body. Not a mallard as we have thousands of them there. I
am going to buy a bird book and quit wondering. Saw lots of brant geese
which are black with a white band around the neck, they have white
undersides. Lots of gulls wheeling above, must have been gathering for
breakfast. Muffy and I sat in the sun and I read a book, totally
escapist morning. I just had a repeat CT of chest, abdomen and pelvis.
Yesterday,the paper showed one day FULL SUN in the 5 day weather
forecast. First one in 4 MONTHS! (Yes, I kept track!)
No, I haven't started taxes and I have three to do! Yes, as a measure of
my state of mind, it is usually done by early March. No, I am not
feeling sick, remarkably well, even the chest pain has disappeared since
the sweat 30 March. My mind though is aware that there is something
growing and trying to fight my way out of the loop.
Cathy said my doc just phoned - CT results and more tumor markers (C-19
and CEA) are in. Have to wait until tomorrow. I see my oncologist 10 May
in Vancouver.
Wish you well in all your tests and hope (pray) all is well. You too
Martha. Glad to hear your sister has found her own lodgings. Another
straw off the camels back. Hooray! Love and God bless, Jeanne
Christine White wrote:
>
> Just wanted to let you all know that I am still reading all posts, just
> haven't had much to say lately. Am still busy with income tax time. Our
> filing deadline is April 30th.
> Have had several doctor's appointments lately, one with the onc, the
> surgeon, my family doctor, the gyn... All is fine except I am still getting
> cysts on my ovaries each month. I have another ultrasound in May and then
> am seeing a new gyn in June. The last gyn was a total jerk, who upset me
> terribly. All he wanted to discuss was a hysterectomy, which I am not keen
> on. My family dr. agreed with me and referred me to a new dr.
> I stopped taking my tamoxifen last weekend. I had stopped it for the month
> of February and felt soooo much better. After discussing it with the onc
> and surgeon, they both said "stop taking it". I seem to be in a real
> "worry" mode lately and down in the dumps. (Can you empathize, Jeanne?).
> I'm hoping that by stopping the tamoxifen, I will feel like my old self
> again.
> I am having back pain which I am beginning to think could be related to
> stress. The dr. did a bone scan in Feb and everything was fine. Will follow
> up with my family dr.
> The family is all fine and keeping me busy, as is my volunteer work at the
> school and work I do for the scouts and Lions Club.
> My sister is finally working and just informed me today that she has rented
> an apartment for the 1st of June. Hooray! She has been with us for almost a
> year. (That certainly adds to the stress. LOL).
> We are continuing to paint animals on rocks for the May craft show. The
> weather is very Springlike. The grass is greening up and the crocus are
> starting to bloom.
> I am hoping to be able to contribute more to mol after tax time. Know that
> I think and pray for each of you daily.
> Christine
>
> At 08:25 PM 13/04/99 -0400, you wrote:
> >Hi Dear Daughter Christine,
> >PJ is gone and she was going to look for her list before and I guess never
> >got to it. All the ones I have are on the Birthday Page, next I want all
> the
> >Anniversarys. I think yours I still need, OK. Hope you are doing OK.
> >Haven't heard much from you. You know I love and miss not seeing your posts.
> >Love ya,
> >Mom (Nanc) ():-)
> >
> >In a message dated 4/13/99 7:07:18 PM Eastern Daylight Time,
> >christine.white@sympatico.ca writes:
> >
> ><< I thought PJ or someone had already compiled a list of birthdays.
> > Christine >>
> >
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