In a message dated 4/15/99 11:20:01 AM Eastern Daylight Time,
dee@gibralter.net writes:
> Dear Mol Angels,
>
> I need you to open up heaven's gates with your prayers today,
please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This I will do -- I will send you my prayer on private email.
> I just spoke with my mom and the paramedics were called to their house
this morning for my dad. He was having trouble breathing again and he was
shaking so violently that my mom couldn't even get a thermometer to stay in
his mouth.
My father has this problem frequently after his chemos. On his "off
weeks" (every 3rd week) he is almost as good as new. My stepmother described
his mood today as "chipper"!
> My dad is at home resting and feeling somewhat better; I know that he is
scared and I wished that I could be there. My sis and her husband are with
them which is so great that they live nearby... but I want so much to see my
dad and help my mom through this!!!! I feel like I have a grip and then the
bottom falls out and I lose it!!!!! I just don't want to lose my dad - it
hurts so much!!!!!!!!
Dee, I know how you feel. Not a day goes by that I don't think about
how I will live with it when my Dad is gone. But what you must remember is
that there is nothing worse for your Dad than to lose you. There is no worse
pain in the world than for a parent to lose a child. So, in the natural order
of things, this is a burden God has given to children...an eventuality; we
pray a distant one however. So try to focus your energy not on a possibility
of loss (that will eventually be reality) but on the blessing that you and
your Dad are here together NOW. That he doesn't have to mourn the loss of
you. That when the time does come you will be there to hold his hand and
help him across the bridge to new life. And remember, one day you will again
join him there! That's the real joy behind all the pain. If heaven would
consist of nothing more than being reunited in eternity with loved ones and
having no time or distance to seperate us, what MORE could we ever ask for?
>
> Please pray for my sweet dad and my family that we get through this with
strength and courage and compassion. This long goodbye isreally so very
difficult; I feel like I could just burst with the emotional pain I am in at
times!!!!!!!
Oh, how well I know this too! I have even asked to the Lord to help
me carry some of my Dad's pain and fatigue - as much as I can, and when it is
too much for me for Him to grant me more strength. I remind Him that I am
younger, healthier, and stronger and if I can help carry some, then my Dad
may be able to handle the rest. If it is given to you to lose your Dad
sooner or later, somehow God will give you ability to carry that pain, Dee.
I lost my Mom when I was 21 and she was 43. It was a total shock, not an
extra moment for apologies, for sharing memories, for unspoken love...make
the most of those moments you have now; they are a treasure. If your Dad did
not get sick and died suddenly you wouldn't have this special time now.
> Thanks for all of you dear Angels,
(my sentiments exactly)
-chris
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