Dear Mary,
Hello, sweetest Mary. I send you a big hug, and shoulder to cry on. You
never abandoned him, and he will never abandon you. Just close your eyes
and think of him and he'll be there. You have lost a loved one on earth,
but have gain a guardian angel in the skies.
Going to the cemetary can be very hard, I know. But just as a loved one's
spirit, will always be looking out for you on earth, I believe that one can
also commune with that spirit at the cemetary; and since there is some
essence of the loved one there, it can be a special place to talk.
I smile to think of you and yours in Disneyland. Have a most marvelous
time. Put a TV in your room and a VCR and try watching some favorite
movies. I would also add some warm milk and cookies.
Lots of Love and Hugs,
Martha
-----Original Message-----
From: Mary Furfaro <furfaro@hometel.com>
To: mol-cancer@lists.meds.com <mol-cancer@lists.meds.com>
Date: Thursday, April 08, 1999 3:25 AM
Subject: Re: [MOL] Mary our Dear Heart !
>Dearest Lil,
>
>It has been very hard for me to get up every day knowing that
>Angelo is really gone. I still feel like he is going to walk
>in the door any minute and say "Daddy Home!" like he used to
>every day before he got sick, and the little ones would just
>run to him.
>
>Like I told Mam and Wayne it is the hardest at night, when I'm
>all alone and the house is so quiet. My l6 year old daughter
>(Emily) has been sleeping with me. I sorta asked her if she
>wanted to but I think it was more me wanting her to. The bedroom
>is just so lonely at night. I sit up and read until I can't hold
>my eyes open then I fall asleep. I wake up off and on all during
>the night and then have a hard time going back t sleep.
>
>Easter was really hard. The kids and I went to Mass and then I
>dropped the kids off at home and went to the cemetary for the
>first time after the funeral. I wanted some time alone. It was
>much harder than I thought it would be. I don't know if I was
>ready for that or not, but I did it anyway. I know in my heart
>he is not there but sometimes I feel as though I am abandoning
>him there. Is this crazy? Or is this a normal feeling of grief?
>
>I could go on forever about the many different feelings I have
>been having but I'd be on here all night. My 7 yearr old's
>teacher called me today and said that Elizabeth had been
>complaining of a stomach aches yesterday at school and the
>nurse talked to her and told her to come back after lunch if
>she was still feeling ill. Well, she didn't but today she
>was down in the office a couple of times. They finally called
>me and suggested that maybe I should pick her up so I did.
>I think she was a little jealous of her brother being home the
>day before and we had gone to the park, so I picked her up from
>school and took her to the park.
>
>The kids and I and my Mom and sisters are all going down to
>Floriday on the l6th of April for about 9 days. I am going
>to take the kids to Disneyworld and my cousin works at
>Anhiser Busch and got my tickets to Busch Gardens. We plan
>on having a wonderul time. I HOPE!!
>
>I was in the chat room, but I'm getting a little tired to I
>think I'll just go to bed .
>
>Love to everyone,
>Mary
>>
>> Dearest Mary: I think of you all the time, wondering how you and your
>> wonderful family are doing, what your doing and all those things that
>> are in your life. I pray daily for strength for you and for a peace
>> to mantle you. My love, lillian
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