Sheila.....please for your sake and your dads...let the anger go...NOW!
Remember that yesterday is gone and there is nothing whatsoever that can be
done to change what happened yesterday, nor five minutes ago.. so please let
your heart be filled with love right now.. not anger.
Remember that there is God and there is heaven and there is no void there.
There is no pain and there is no disease... May God fill your heart with
the warmth of His love and guide you to a place of peace and the ability to
release your anger and replace it with comfort and love... Carla
-----Original Message-----
From: John & Sheila Lloyd <tagteam@swbell.net>
To: mol-cancer@lists.meds.com <mol-cancer@lists.meds.com>
Date: Monday, July 06, 1998 12:28 AM
Subject: Re: [MOL] Update on Dad/sheila
>I believe that I am ready to let him go. I cannot handle seeing him this
way.
>I am only scared that he will be alone. I am seriously thinking of not
going to
>bed tonight. I am not sure why. I knew in my gut yesterday, that he
probably
>wouldn't last the week. I just want his suffering to end. I am angry. I
am
>angry that the docs didn't fight more aggresively in the beginning since he
had
>no insurance. I know that I need to let that go, but it is hard not to
wonder
>what would have happened if they had treated him differently. It is almost
like
>he is already gone, we are just waiting for his body to stop. If that
makes any
>sense. Anyway, I cannot even begin to say thank you for all that you have
done
>for me. I will keep you updated. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.
>
>Love, Sheila
>
>ken naehring wrote:
>
>> Sheila, my heart goes out to your dad and you and the family.. You have
>> reached a time that is not easy to face.. It is a time that you want to
>> hold on to and stretch out and then inside your heart is the knowledge
that
>> you must let him go.
>>
>> Oh how I wish I had words that could even begin to bring some comfort to
>> you.. I only know in my heart that I must tell you to be loving and help
>> him to transition with joy and peace, unto heaven. You will all be in my
>> prayers tonight and I pray that whenever you must let him go, there will
be
>> a special moment of sharing and caring that you will hold dear in your
heart
>> forever more... May God be with you and loving you through this time...
>> Love, Carla
>> -----Original Message-----
>> From: John & Sheila Lloyd <tagteam@swbell.net>
>> To: mol-cancer@lists.meds.com <mol-cancer@lists.meds.com>
>> Date: Sunday, July 05, 1998 10:51 PM
>> Subject: [MOL] Update on Dad
>>
>> >Hello Everyone,
>> >
>> >This has not been a very good weekend for us. We were going to take my
dad
>> to
>> >the bank on Friday. Before he made it to the car, he stumbled and fell.
>> He hit
>> >head first and gashed open his forehead and nose. He would not let us
take
>> him
>> >to the hospital or to the E.R. clinic, so I called hospice, and they
came
>> and
>> >looked at it. I guess the good news on that part is that they think it
was
>> just
>> >superficial, and nothing to worry about. He has had two really bad days
>> since
>> >then. We cannot seem to get his pain under control, and today we ran
out
>> of his
>> >breakthrough pain medicine. I crushed one of his long acting ones and
gave
>> that
>> >to him, it still didn't seem to be doing anything, so I crushed another
>> one. He
>> >seemed to be doing better, asked for some ice cream and talked a little.
>> Then
>> >about an hour later, I couldn't wake him to give him his steriod, and I
>> >couldn't. We thought he had gone into a coma. His eyes were only half
>> open,
>> >but he wouldn't respond to anything at all. We sort of prepared
ourselves
>> for
>> >him not waking up, told my daughter, and of course she started crying.
We
>> are
>> >all in his room, holding his hands, telling him we love him and
everything.
>> >After about 1-2 hours of him not responding, I called hospice. Fifteen
>> minutes
>> >before the nurse gets here, he just wakes up, and cannot figure out what
is
>> >wrong with us. He woke up in much pain, and after taking some of the
short
>> >acting pain pills that had finally arrived, he told me that he hoped he
>> could
>> >take the pills, go to sleep and not wake up. He told me that he was
ready
>> to
>> >die. I don't want him to die, but I do not want to see him suffer
anymore
>> >either. I really do not think it will be much longer, before he passes.
>> Pls
>> >put us in your prayers.
>> >
>> >Love you guys,
>> >Sheila
>> >
>> >John Waller wrote:
>> >
>> >> Sheila-
>> >>
>> >> Love the glamour shot! It's a treat to have your photos. Thanks!
>> >>
>> >> Nonie
>>
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