To all my wonderful friends on MOL: As you have been made aware
my computer crashed, and crashed it did BIG TIME! It ended up going
into the computer hospital to have surgery. Now that would not appear
to be such a big deal; but it was to me. It was like my family being
removed from me one by one. I cried everyday, my blood pressure plumage
creating an emergency trip to the hospital. People teased me
about having computer withdrawal. They simply did not understand
the pain I was having, because I love each and every one of you with all
my heart. Today I went to the Doctors, he started asking me questions
and I was doing pretty good with the memory bit, then I flunked a question,
I knew I had and broke down panting and sobbing like a baby. It was
so bad that he first took my hand and started rubbing it, then he held
me in his arms for 45 mins. until I could gain control; which I never did
fully; but somehow managed to quiet down to some extent. My blood
pressure was the best it has been for sometime now, guess one should cry
more often. Then he told me he felt the pregnazone was creating a
chemical imbalance ( well anyone on this drug, know's it is the drug from
hell, and knows that it causes havoc; so I sort of figured that one
out myself) and humbly told him I would see the shrink he recommended so
I can get yet another prescription to replace the chemical imbalance I
am experiencing. He also has scheduled another mammogram for tomorrow;
but you know none of that really meant anything. One thing was on
my mind and one thing only. That was all the dear and wonderful people
of MOLL. Yes, each and everyone one of you are a part of the weave
that has patterned the canering me. Thank you dear one's for all
that you give, no matter what you are going through, you find it to reach
out and help someone. You are an amazing group of people and I so
appreciate each and everyone of you. Love, Lillian
