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Carla,
That was truly inspirational!
Christine

At 12:17 AM 24/05/98 -0400, you wrote:
>Emmett, you have heard from some others already about the various ways of
>dealing with it...  It is not a pat answer as each one is different and each
>persons cancer is also different..
>
>I am 45 and went in for a biopsy last November and woke up minus my right
>lung.  NSCLC adenocarinoma Stage IIb with one lymph  node involved and no
>distant metastases.  My other name is Carla!  LOL!
>
>When I woke up, I only heard and understood what I wanted to and that was
>that they got it all.  I have come to learn that means that they got clear
>margins.  I didn't know for 4 weeks after surgery that there was any reason
>to even see an oncologist..
>
>When I got home from the hospital, all I could think about was getting
>better and getting back to my life.  After I saw the oncologist all I could
>think about was whether or not I was going to have a life.  That was when I
>logged on to the computer and started doing my research.
>
>The results of that research scared the begeebies out of me!  I knew right
>then, that if I truly believed all of that then I was doomed.  I went to see
>a second oncologist and like him alot as a person with admirable ideas, but
>he never even examined me.  I ended up back at my surgeon's asking for help.
>I was also in a stress period..  I asked him what he thought about this
>coming back.  He said that honestly he couldn't tell me.. That it does on
>some and doesn't on others.  He referred me to an oncologist, who I still
>see now.
>
>What my surgeon told me about the fact that it comes back to some and not to
>others started me on the search for information.  I sure wanted to know
>about the ones that it doesn't come back on.  When I saw my oncologist, he
>and I disagreed about treatment.. he wanted to be aggressive and do chemo
>and I felt an inner voice saying no.  After a few weeks I still said no and
>he told me to do whatever I believed in, as what I believed would
>work.....would...
>
>That was when I knew that the mind played a role in this cancering
>journey... I had the faith in God and had several hundred people praying for
>me, but I knew that I also needed to learn about the minds of survivors..
>That is where this forum has been so good.
>
>The first thing I did was to buy Greg Anderson's book "50 Essential Things
>to do when the Doctor says its Cancer".  I started researching supplements.
>I changed my diet and got a treadmill and slowly built up to a walk..
>Having only one lung truly changes much about the way you breath and if you
>do when you are tired!!  LOL!!
>
>I went on to buy other books and learn alot from the people here and I
>started sharing with others and responding to others and that is when I got
>the next boost and learned the lesson that in giving, you will receive.  I
>was also able to share my faith in God and hope in life message and each
>time I did, it grew a little stronger in me.
>
>I am just now getting ready to try some meditation..  Now, last November I
>would have told you no way on so many things that I now do, but I have
>learned  that getting rid of toxic stress is very important and so my life
>has been changing in so many ways.
>
>The cancering journey (verb=action, and I hated feeling helpless) has truly
>turned out to be an experience by which I have gained so much.  I have found
>out some of the best things about me;  I have learned that it is a blessing
>to feel love and share your heart with others,  I have learned that quality
>of life truly means more than quantity of life, I have learned that I cannot
>control the exact time that God will call me to join Him, but I can know
>that it will be His time, not a medical statistical prediction.
>
>I have even learned to laugh alot more.  I used to be so serious about
>everything...  I was the one always pushing to get it done immediately and
>perfectly...   Now I know that there is no such word as perfect on this
>earth.  I used to be one of those drivers that had a few choice comments for
>the lesser drivers I encountered and now I take a few deep breaths and find
>someother focus.  I used to huff and puff in crowds and stores and now I try
>to be the one to smile, for you truly don't know what has just happened to
>someone else...  They didn't know when it happened to me.
>
>All of this my only way of sharing some of what I have learned for me over
>the past 7 months...If there is anything here that will help you, please
>take it... it is freely given and never has to be earned.  I don't believe
>that God gave me cancer, but I believe that He allowed me to have it,
>because He needed me to change.  I am embracing the change and allowing the
>light to shine in me and through me.
>
>May God Bless you with your course lighted for the cancering journey and
>give you the faith to believe that you will be a survivor and the comfort to
>take you through the highs and lows of the medical journey, but most of all
>may He allow you the smiles of hope and sharing...  Carla
>-----Original Message-----
>From: Emmett <esauer@aeneas.net>
>To: mol-cancer@lists.meds.com <mol-cancer@lists.meds.com>
>Date: Saturday, May 23, 1998 7:36 PM
>Subject: [MOL] Hi!
>
>
>>My name is Emmett, I joined this list a few days ago and have been getting
>>some good reading.  I am 52 and found out the first of April that I have
>>Non-Small-Cell Stage IIIA Lung cancer.
>>
>>I am taking two radiation treatments a day and one chemo per week.  I had
>>(and still have) the initial shock of finding this out, I am dealing with
>>it better now than I was a month ago.  My family is very supportive as are
>>the customers that I have (I am an ISP & Webmaster in Tennessee).
>>
>>Wondering the different ways that any of you may have in confronting
>cancer.
>>
>>Thanks for listening..
>>
>>Emmett
>>
>>
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>>Emmett Sauer                     Aeneas Internet Services of Henry Co.
>>esauer@aeneas.net (901)644-7980        http://paris.aeneas.net
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