Sally, I am sorry that Charlie has not gotten over the
sickness yet. I am even sorrier that you can't find anything that seems to
help him through it....
You know there is alot of truth to what you
said about depression and sleeping through it... I know that for me there
are times when the day can be too long and too much time for me to think, so it
is easier to sleep through it... If he is ill, then the trips probably
aren't very appealing for him right now.... Keep the faith... he will get
to a point soon where he feels better....
I am glad that you have played the piano,
but again, don't worry for your Charlie will play again and will enjoy the vista
view... You are right that if he is at the bottom of the roller coaster
right now, then he has one way to go and that is
up...!
Another part of the cancering journey is
setting goals and I believe that we set a goal and give it our all to reach
it. In our minds we know we will have to set additional goals for each one
that we actually reach, but we don't consciously admit it because that would take more than
we can give. So when one is reached, our minds shut down and take a little
siesta while we gear up to go the next mile and reach the next goal.
I know that for me, had I honestly known
after surgery what truly laid ahead, I can't be sure if I could ever have
tackled it and come out as well as I have. Instead I went my route in the
way that I could deal with it and it was much easier in incremental
steps... But the truth be known.. I didn't realize it when I was going
through it... You know how they say that God takes care of children and
fools.... well, I think that may be one of the blessings of the cancering
journey... It is sort of like childbirth and labor pains... When you
are going through them you don't think you will make it, then when you do, you
swear you won't go through it again and then somewhere along the way you can't
recall the pain so intimately anymore and it doesn't seem that bad and so you go
through it again..
I believe that we are protected from truly
understanding what it is we will have to go through on the cancering journey and
then I believe that we rest when we have given as much as we can for the moment,
so that we can pick up and continue in our determination to be a cancering
survivor... Charlie fought a hard battle and after the news he is resting
and building strength for the next part.
Well, I have rattled on in my usual fashion
and I have probably repeated in an abstract way what everyone already
knows.... Have a good weekend my friend and you sit by the vista and
play wonderful music. God Bless you and much love and hugs to you and
Charlie.. Carla
