Dear Ron,
A day without "muzings from the roof" would be a day without hope! I so
enjoy and look forward to hearing from you. Even when you think you are
a bit depressed, you manage to lighten my load and brighten my spirits!
Your thoughts about my self-conciousness is of course correct. We all
have our own little secrets we wish to keep hidden. I too had a beard
since I have been in my late 20's. I grew it when I left the service and
only shaved it a week prior to my surgery so as not to frighten the
children. Seems the radiation disposed of any lip hair thus eliminating
any desire to have my facial hair return...never did like the look of our
previous Commander of Health, Dr. C. Everett Kroop. As for my nose, the
likelyhood that it would blow off is slim...I glue it on each day and
peal it off at night (think of the possibilities!). I do have to be
careful when I sneeze as, if I don't hold onto it, it will blow off!
Wednesday, I plan on puting on a holloween dog nose for my oncologist
(just before I go into see him) in honor of April 1st! It is the only
opportunity I have to try and get him to smile!
I wish I could shake this lethergy that has overcome me the past couple
of weeks...will bring that up with my oncologist when I see him on
Wednesday. Don't know if it is spring feaver, board with my life (like I
haven't had enough excitement this past year!?), or post tramatic stress.
Things are evening out for me at work and I am adjusting to my new
"advisory" role. I do miss some of the "front line action" and
"political free-for-alls" but it is nice being on the sidelines and
watching a new "quarterback" get "sacked" for a change! I was overwelmed
by the number of e-mails today...close to 200 to deal with. I hate when
we get an influx of new people like this as I can't muster the energy to
write to each one as I would like to. I admire you being there for
everyone and having that supportive phrase or welcoming word for each.
My heart just does not seem to be in it these days. I can't even say
that the quality of my conversations with God are as intense or frequent.
Here's hoping that, along with Easter, I will be reborn and energized
...if not, I'll have to try "ever-ready" :-)
Well my dear friend, till tomorrow, God Bless and keep that skylight
shining!
John
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