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From:
ken naehring <blessu@worldnet.att.net>
To:
mol-cancer <mol-cancer@lists.meds.com>
Date:
Thursday, March 12, 1998 5:13 AM
Subject: [MOL] Gwen, Mary
Ann,Jean,Claire, Lillian, John, Marty, Ron,Diana
Wow, what wonderful people and dear friends you and
so many others are here. I am always touched deeply by the warmth that
the love and caring of my mol-friends can bring to my heart and the smile it
can put on my face. I feel truly blessed to know that you are all
thinking of me while I go through the procedure. I just want you to
know that you add comfort to me as I begin to mentally prepare for this and
spiritually prepare... So I feel calm and safe right
now...
The problem will be later when he hurts me
again! LOL!! Just kidding!!
NOT!!! But I will get through it and I will try real hard
to focus on all of you and loving thoughts regardless of the pain. If
I wanted the easy way, I would concentrate on hurting him back, but... no I
believe in brotherly kindness.... I wonder if he does?
LOL! Wow, am I off the edge a little tonight or what? I think
so.
We just got word this evening that my father in law
who has prostate cancer and is hospitalized now, well his kidneys shut down
today and the family has been called in. He is a very wonderful man
and is in his late 80's and he has lived a wonderful life and made a
difference to alot of people who have had the privilege of knowing him. Sometimes it is hard to let go
and for me this is the second family death since I began cancering and I
really struggle with dealing with it. Please don't think poorly of
me.... remember that I was already diagnosed with battle
fatigue.
I do hope and pray that God makes good use of
me. The trials that we go through are to glorify Him and perfect
us. I have certainly had alot of work done on me in the past 7 months
and should be becoming a beacon of His love, for I have grown as I have gone
through all of this. Still no growth and no trials are without pain
and at the moment it hurts. I just will pray that God multiplies the
joy and peace after the pain. God Bless you all and I am ever so
grateful to have you as friends... I will write tomorrow evening when
I get home.... Love and Hugs..
Carla
