Dear CArla and Cindy,
ccrowe@msn.com
I am just so proud of the both of you and am honored and priveleged to
see the beautiful warmth and compassion and gestures of honesty and
sincerity that are in your deep warm messages. You truly are angels.
thank you for being there for each other as you both, I am certain,
bring joy with cherished thoughts and hugs for your needs both in giving
and taking. God Bless You both, you are dear.
Your very humble friend
marty
ken naehring wrote:
>
> Cindy, I jumped into this message to Marty from you to tell you that I think
> you did a very brave and wonderful supportive thing in allowing Jim to go on
> his own and putting your fears on the back shelf. I am really glad that he
> phoned you with such good news at this point. I think the positive news at
> this point is really needed by Jim and you and I am glad you got it.
>
> My heart goes out to you about the bi-polar disease. Someone that I love
> did not get regulated on her medication and as such ended up trying to
> commit suicide last September. She is in a nursing home now and can't
> speak, nor walk much and they don't know how much of her mind will return.
> She is in her late 30's. It hurts so much and myself and all of the family
> have asked over and over again, what they could have done to have prevented
> it. As you know and we came to know... there was nothing. Take good care
> of yourself and I will pray that you and Jim work this out well together....
> Carla
> -----Original Message-----
> From: Cindy Crowe <ccrowe@msn.com>
> To: mol-cancer@lists.meds.com <mol-cancer@lists.meds.com>
> Date: Monday, March 09, 1998 4:05 PM
> Subject: Re: [MOL] Another Message for Cindy
>
> >Dear Marty,
> >
> >Thanks for your inspirational messages. They always seem to come at the
> >neediest times of my life. FYI, bi-polar used to be called manic
> >depressive. I was diagnosed over 20 years ago. This disease like other
> >emotional problems has a stigma to lots of people; but I don't try to hide
> >that I have a problem that is incurable, will only get worse with time and
> >keep my relationship with my psychiatrist (pdoc) close so that he can help
> >regulate me with drugs and support. Mine is so severe that I am on
> >permanent disability from work. The drugs help quite a bit; however, from
> >time to time my body no longer reacts to them and we have to start trying
> >other meds until we come upon some that work. Bi-polar just means that
> >without meds, my moods swings going from being really high and euphoric
> >(and sometimes violent and obsessive-compulsive) down to the darkness of
> >depression (where I am unfunctional and have thoughts of suicide -- I've
> >never tried that because I do really want to live). Anyway, now that I've
> >written you my "book" on bi-polar I hope you can see where it is extremely
> >difficult to deal with my problem and Jim's on top of that.
> >
> >Jim called earlier today (this is also the first of three days of his next
> >chemo therapy session) and said that the dr. said the CT scan showed that
> >his tumors have been greatly reduced and that that was really good news.
> >She told him that after another 2 sessions (not days) of chemo they would
> >redo the CT and, if he keeps improving, maybe stop his treatment for a
> >while. I know we shouldn't listen to "how long he has to live" predictions
> >from his dr. but I do use them as a "checking point." When he was first
> >diagnosed, they gave him a few months to live, then they put him in the 1
> to
> >2 year group, and he told me today that he is now "possibly" in the 3 to 4
> >year group -- this means to me that he really is improving and maybe I
> won't
> >be a 43 year old widow after all (I'm really scared of losing him).
> >
> >Anyway, sorry for rambling. My PC is my link to the world and all the new
> >friends I've made on MOL. Everyone here is on my prayer list; please keep
> >us on yours because only God will determine what is really going to happen.
> >
> >Your friend,
> >
> >Cindy
> >
> >-----Original Message-----
> >From: Martin Auslander <fitecancer@earthlink.net>
> >To: Medical On Line Forum <mol-cancer@lists.meds.com>
> >Cc: ccrowe@msn.com <ccrowe@msn.com>
> >Date: Monday, March 09, 1998 3:16 PM
> >Subject: [MOL] Another Message for Cindy
> >
> >
> >>ccrowe@msn.com
> >>
> >>Dear Cindy,
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>Pls excuse this stupid person. What does bi-polar mean?
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>May I tell you this? Pls do not get yourself into a panic state. I
> >>
> >>understand how and what you feel. I have been there, and have done much
> >>
> >>and learned much to get over anxieties and mainly they are usually not
> >>
> >>based on fact, but prenotions that something may happen when in fact
> >>
> >>that is the negativity we need to get over. Pls also know this and I
> >>
> >>wish there was someone there to tell me this, when Barb was first
> >>
> >>diagnosed, that we will be walking side by side and when we learn of the
> >>
> >>real facts from your hubbys doc, we will point you in directions that
> >>
> >>will help you both over certain humps. OK? I hope this is somewhat
> >>
> >>reassuring. Pls let me know and mol group know. There are many that will
> >>
> >>provide info.
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>take care my friend
> >>
> >>marty and Barb
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