Wow, what wonderful people and dear friends you and so
many others are here. I am always touched deeply by the warmth that the
love and caring of my mol-friends can bring to my heart and the smile it can put
on my face. I feel truly blessed to know that you are all thinking of me
while I go through the procedure. I just want you to know that you add
comfort to me as I begin to mentally prepare for this and spiritually
prepare... So I feel calm and safe right now...
The problem will be later when he hurts me again!
LOL!! Just kidding!! NOT!!! But I will
get through it and I will try real hard to focus on all of you and loving
thoughts regardless of the pain. If I wanted the easy way, I would
concentrate on hurting him back, but... no I believe in brotherly
kindness.... I wonder if he does? LOL! Wow, am I off the edge
a little tonight or what? I think so.
We just got word this evening that my father in law who
has prostate cancer and is hospitalized now, well his kidneys shut down today
and the family has been called in. He is a very wonderful man and is in
his late 80's and he has lived a wonderful life and made a difference to alot of
people who have had the privilege of knowing
him. Sometimes it is hard to let go and for me this is the second family
death since I began cancering and I really struggle with dealing with it.
Please don't think poorly of me.... remember that I was already diagnosed with
battle fatigue.
I do hope and pray that God makes good use of me.
The trials that we go through are to glorify Him and perfect us. I have
certainly had alot of work done on me in the past 7 months and should be
becoming a beacon of His love, for I have grown as I have gone through all of
this. Still no growth and no trials are without pain and at the moment it
hurts. I just will pray that God multiplies the joy and peace after the
pain. God Bless you all and I am ever so grateful to have you as
friends... I will write tomorrow evening when I get home....
Love and Hugs.. Carla
