Girl, I tell you, you better get busy and start
a two way communication, I know how hard it is; but also how important.
Talk in bed with the lights out, promise not to interrupt each other, to answer
each other as honestly as you can and to take turns on the questions. If
you were his rock, you must slowly start teaching him to stand on his own.
Talk it all out, cry it all out, take the action the two of you descide on and
then both of you get into somethings you both enjoy doing; so that will
eventually take up the conversations. I see you have trouble
sleeping at night along with some others. Is that all part of the
game? I am so tired when I go to bed and as soon as I lay my head down,
close my eyes, they pop back open and I can't sleep. This bothers my
husband alot, I keep assuring him that I think its natural; but why I don't
know. Oh yes, I took a good tumble, usuraly I fall rather gracefully; but
not this time, it was fast and hard. No bones broken and thats all that
matters. My blood preasure has gone crazy again; so I'll have to give doc.
a call tomorrow. Could I have your e-mail address? Tell me this
Carla, now that you don't have your business and are no longer a council member
or on the planning board, did you find out who your friends really are? I
worked for the City, Dept. Head, worked with thousands of people who all wanted
something from me, when I took ill, they were nowhere to be found,; but I did
find out I had four great real friends. Hard lessons huh? Emagine a
has been at 50. What is this march I am reading about? Take care of
the two of you.Lillian
Lillian, did you really fall today?
Are you ok? I read your message to Ervin and I want you to know that
it was a great outreach. I really understand what you were
saying. I don't say much to my husband anymore and I know that he
doesn't know what to say to me. He already knows that I don't want to
die and that there has been alot of fear associated with that VERY
LARGE FEELING! He has been sick since the week after I had surgery and
I know that it is him trying to deal with my illness. Since I am
usually the comforter and rock, I know he is going through some tough times
trying to deal with it all. I don't really know what to do to make it
any better for him. Naturally, because he is here, if I need to
snap....it is at him. Thats why I threw the surprise Birthday party
for him Saturday.... He needed the break from my cancering and it did him
alot of good. We are going in to see our Pastor for some help with
this... it is hard. I know your message was a wonderful outreach for
Ervin, but it touched on me too, so I wanted to let you know. Thanks
Lillian.... sometimes it takes someone else to show us our own thoughts and
emotions... Love
you!.....Carla
