Re: [MOL] The Meaning of Serenity [02685] Medicine On Line

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Re: [MOL] The Meaning of Serenity

Dear Vicci,
You have just put into words my feelings about religion. I was raised to go
to church every Sunday and to learn the articles of faith and all the
commandments and the Christian rules and regulations, but I never "Saw the
Light." And I still don't. Interestingly enough I believe in the Christian
philosophy "Love thy Neighbor as thyself". And I never knowingly take
unfair advantage of anyone or do others wrong (maybe that's why I'll never
have any money), but I don't have the kind of religious conviction that
allows me to place all my faith and trust in God. Maybe I am a control
freak, but I have always run  my own life and taken responsibility for my
own actions.

I wish I could just hand my problems over to God and trust that all is
well, but I can't. Now I don't feel so alone in my views.

Liz P.

>Dear Joicy,
> do I answer this?  First of all I would never take offense from
>a friend trying to help, especially you.  You wrote a very caring and
>inspirational letter and I thank you.  I guess I just don't know how to do
>what your asking.  As a child I went to a little Protestant church in our
>neighborhood and had fun and put my little quarter in the basket with my
>brothers.  Then I started going to the Mormon church with the two girls
>next door.  When I was old enough to stand up and give my testimonial I
>quit.  I learned scriptures and verses and went till about 15 years of age.
> Got that far before I was being encouraged to testify.  I guess that
>scared me.  Not wanting to talk to a group of people.  I've heard the
>phrase, "Let go, Let God"  Most of the people I know that go to church
>preach the word but don't live the word.  And many others I don't know
>personally don't live up to what I assume they are being taught in the
>church.  I know it's not fair to pray only when you need something very
>badly but I find a comfort in living my life as best I can without hurting
>others.  I try to think before saying a hurtful thing.  I try to put myself
>in the other persons shoes before criticizing.  I'm not making excuses but
>I just haven't felt the thing you have felt about going with God.  I'm
>definetly open to it.  But what do I do, go to church and hope it happens?
>It makes me very uncomfortable when people start talking religion and I
>know how they lead their lives.  I've often thought I would take my
>granddaughter and go down the street to the little church.  Give it a try.
>Maybe I will.  How come it's so easy for some to just all of a sudden,
>believe?  Why is it so hard for some of us.  I do believe in a higher power
>but sometimes I just think about the karma of a situation and that's enough
>to make me change something.  Like not throwing my gum out the car window
>because I know gum will come into my life somehow.  I'll step in it or the
>car in front of me will sling it up on my car.  I'm not making light of
>this, I'm telling you exactly how I think about things.  I don't step on
>ants, intentionally.  I always let a driver pull in my lane.  Just stupid
>little things.  I'm probably not getting the drift of what you're trying to
>tell me but I swear I just don't understand.  I've often thought how easy
>it would be to have some why doesn't it come?  Why aren't I hit
>over the head, being I'm so hardheaded.  It sure would be easier than
>trying to handle all this myself.  Maybe I'm a control freak.  Sounds like
>it took some convincing on your part also.  Maybe I will get that book and
>write a few things down.  Just to see what happens.  Just don't give up on
>me, Joicy!  Where there's a will, there's a way, huh?  Love you!   Vicci
>> From: Joicy Becker-Richards <>
>> To:
>> Subject: Re: [MOL] The Meaning of Serenity
>> Date: Wednesday, August 26, 1998 6:43 PM
>> Dear Vicci,
>> With all that is going on in your life these days, I'm not surprised
>> you're feeling kind of shaky, dear friend. And when everything is
>> stirred up, it is so hard to find perspective. Unfortunately, there is
>> no easy fix -- though folks will always hunt for it in meds, drugs,
>> alcohol, money, etc., etc. Speaking from personal experience, I've found
>> only one source for that kind of serenity: knowing that there is higher
>> power with a plan... I tried for so long to "do it all" on my own, with
>> disasterous results. Finally, in desperation, I gave up and literally
>> issued God a challenge: "Ok, you think you can do better with my life?
>> Go for it! But I'm keeping notes!" And I did -- and he did. I mean, I
>> really put him to the test -- as things went wrong, or I needed help,
>> I'd make note of it in a journal, and then watch to see how he'd resolve
>> it. What amazed me is that I was always willing to settle for mediocre
>> solutions, when God wanted to give me the best -- his answers always
>> exceed my expectations.
>> Oh, the stories I could tell... But the real test came 3 years ago as I
>> sat in a bath, dicovered a lump, and knew I had breast cancer. And in
>> spite of it, like the mother bird in the story, I felt an impossible
>> serenity, "the peace that passes all understanding," as the scriptures
>> describe it. And that feeling stayed with me, even during the worst of
>> it, with bad reactions to chemo, etc. We have a very powerful God. It's
>> tough turning things loose to him, but wow! the things that happen when
>> you do!
>> Anyhow I share this with you as a friend, with love and concern for all
>> you're going through, and the hope I haven't offended. You and your
>> family continue to be in my prayers. Love, Joicy
>> Vicci Ewen wrote:
>> >
>> > Oh to feel serene like that mother bird.  I kinda feel shaky most of
>> > time lately.
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Liz P. Of Yakima

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