I was really touched by your letter
Lillian. First of all let me tell you that I am Carla, not Ken... I
haven't changed the lead name on our computer. I think it was really
profound of you to be looking back to the woman you met when paying the water
bill and her marvelous smile.
I wonder, did you believe in God before
then? I came to know God almost 3 years ago and and I know that I wouldn't
be where I am today without Him in my life. It is wonderful to hear of
marriages that increase and become better through this like yours and Marty and
Barbs. It gives me hope. I know that there are times when I snap at
him and all he is trying to do is help, its just that I am not wanting or
accepting of what he is trying to do.
I will pray that I can develop more of a
graceful attitude towards others as they experience this with me. I truly
am not a selfish person and I don't want to become one through this
experience.
You say that your experience isn't really any different from
anyone elses on this forum. What type of cancer are you working on
surviving? I have only been here for a month, so I don't know alot of the
people here. I appreciate your sharing and I appreciate your
caring....
I received the results of my PET scan of my chest today and it
shows normal, with no tumors present. Praise the Lord. Next week I
will have the MRI of the brain and the bone scan done. I don't know where
to find my peace yet as to treatment... to chemo and radiate or not.
For my stage they don't usually, but for my age they seem to think agressive
action is best. That is why I am doing research on protocols, studies,
etc., I really don't want to go through chemo (as if anyone does!),
but I don't want to forego it if it is important to my recovery and long term
survival. Sometimes I have problems disguishing between Thy Will and My
Will. So prayer is something else that I rely on.
I am always happy to make another friend here. God Bless
you Lillian and a very Happy New Year to you and
yours..... Carla
